Uncover the dark to be drenched in goodness.

My eyes caught an usual sight but the mind linked it up to the most unusual theory. 

While taking a short evening walk between work, I just noticed how cloudy it was getting - Were we getting ready for November Rains - was what I thought???

But there was more that was going on in my mind just then.. 

I noticed that there were these dark clouds - Clouds that seemed to be in a rush to take over the sky.

Somewhere in that sheet of dark clouds there was a small almost a heart shaped window which caught my attention. Through that window it was evident that there was some serious movement and rumble happening above the Dark Clouds. It was clear that  the Dark clouds were travelling in the opposite direction as compared to the clouds above. 

 What was striking was that those clouds above the Dark clouds were silvery white and radiant with the sun rays almost to say they were the only clouds left for the evening emitting sunlight. 

For some reason it reminded me of a movie scene where the dark forces were taking over the goodness.. but yet the rays of sun still fighting its way to find an anchor, so to say not lose hope.. 

I saw the last rays of sun for the evening dying and the Dark Clouds taking over the skies. 

But I know the beautiful shining moons going to be out soon to rescue and the sun is shining somewhere bright and again tomorrow morning it'll be a new sunny day. The silver glittery clouds will take over the dark clouds soon. 

There is always a strong rumble for the dark to take over the goodness but in order to find the goodness back the fight can seem to be tough but might prove to be as natural as a rising sun on a new day. 

Uncover the dark to be drenched in goodness.

Up above the trees so high!!!

Bangkok Diaries!!!

THE WIND RULES THE LAND, HOWLING LIKE A MANIAC,
FOR WHERE ARE THE TREES TO TEMPER ITS WILD LAUGHTER
INTO TOMANTIC WOOING?

[I COULD SEE OLD TREES LIKE OLD MEN, DIE OFF EVERY WINTER.
YOUNG ONES ARE PUT TO FLAME OR ARE NOT TROUBLED TO BE BORN.]
-- SOHRA

During our recent Bangkok office off site trip 1 whole day was allotted to the Flight of the Gibbon's - near Pattaya which is famous for its Zip-lining and the zoo.
Now being bitten by the the adventure bug I was quite excited to know n experience this new form of madness in the name of adventure.
SO we started climbing up the mountain, which has always been the most difficult part for me- considering my lazy n fat self..never the less once we got to the treestands i thot the most difficult part was done, n i was so wrong.
So v got all hyper, took zillion pics at the base of the first zip lining board as we climbed up the first tree there were butterflies and birds n dragons all at once flying in my stomach..
Ppl thot i was brave n experienced enough considering i had done bungee jumping and flying fox etc., but trust me standing up on the board seeing the tiny paths below n no way of backing out now I was as nervous as any one else.
That dreadful moment had arrived when it was my turn to take the plunge.. n yet again here i was trusting the harness with the butterflies and the dragons jumping in my stomach...The initial scary moments to LET GO of the board beneath my feat were the most challenging ones, where turning back was not a choice I'd want to make. The next board seemed my only rescue n praying not to crash land seemed like the exaggerated movie scene, only to realiase the truth, that v r abt 40 ft high which was the lowest point as from there each point got even higher..
As a child sometimes before exams or some nervous situation I wud get a dream or a feeling in my stomach that am falling in some kind of dark black space without any light and m just falling.
 I had that kinda feeling once again where my stomach churned and mind oozed out some extra scary enzymes.. but my heart which is now become an adventure lover made me hold on to the harness tight and assured me that am gonna survive and survive zipping thru, hence this time being not mind over matter but heart over matter and I took the plunge...
 while i took off I did have the "what if I crash land feeling" soon after the first few flights it turned into I am flying kinda feeling.. a lot changed from 1st flight to the 23rd flight which was the longest and the most exciting one. I had that dance in the sky feeling as the last flight was of about 3km stretch and by the end of the it i missed having the adrenaline rush gearing up for the next one..The trust building exercise is wat mattered to me the most, as it wasnt just abt trusting the harness but also abt trusting myself!!! 
From the time I let go of the fear of dying or hurting myself I started enjoying the moment. I would sit on the edge of the board hanging my feet hanging down into nothing and just take a deep breath of fresh oxygen and drift in the space between the top of the trees and the sky.. The view from the tree tops was almost like being on the top of the world.. Cause for me the world is not the roof tops of the fancy sky scrappers with the heli-pads and the pools but the lush green exotic trees with the waterfalls. These moments were my little moments of bliss and I am certain to cherish those moments!!!
I survived n walked out, rather zipped out feeling zoetic n stronger in my mind n heart!!



  

Give to get!!

So i started a new tradition of gifting something personal to my brothers for Rakhi, unknowing as to how big a trouble i was getting myself into!! However I consider myself to b a Gifter n love to dwell into a persons personality n give it some serious thinking about what, where from, how to, wat wrapper etc. etc., before getting the gift ready.

 So i decided to get a brand of perfume which isnt available in my city and called the store in another city and made a frd go get it n then since other frds were visiting that city asked my frd to deliver it to them.. Meanwhile m thinking what else to give how to pack.. all that going in my head i was certain that my brothers wud love the gift  n that all the obligations i was taking is gonna b worth it, not forgetting I m going to re-pay d favours some day.. too many levels of circles to cover in life..

 So as simple as it seemed, it wasnt n finally when i received the packet I was so thrilled to have received it as though a little kid got his long awaited favorite imported candy. 

with the hamper i made i was feeling content grateful n happy as tho it was an addition on my dressing table tho it was a deficit in my bank balance.

At the time of finally handing the hampers all the brothers seemed to hv loved it except for 1.. grumppy me!! But when another msged saying how much thy liked it i was thrilled..

Just that all those obligations n efforts (of my frds) seemed worth it enough..
I know its not thanksgiving but i am still grateful. Its not about the price tag of a gift but how worthy it becomes for the thot n efforts gone behind it. The moment its acknowledged n appreciated the cost turns into value n efforts turn into twinkle in the eyes!! :)
So when ppl say joy of giving the joys truly felt only when u r giving..no matter what it is.. as long as its with positive attitude, positive energy and positive intent the positivity is sure to flow!!! 

The dancing clouds

The monsoons r going on, somedays r nice n romantic n somedays quite spitefully pouring.

What I like the most is those days when the clouds dance really low to the tunes of the wind and the Sun plays sportive spotlight letting the clouds flow in their mood n rule the open earthy stage.

Its almost like the clouds are teasing and playing around knowing that they r under the spotlight for a change after a couple of months of sunny fury. 

The foreplay between the clouds and the rain anticipating earthy creatures is quite alluring in itself. 

Birds dilemma to hide or to fly away is evident. 

The shadows of the lush green fauna gracefully tuning themselves to the unplanned beats and tempo of the breeze seems choreographed especially for the watchful eye.

The blinding sunny satires to the calming pleasant grays of the noon r distracting for a unsettled mind only to sober it down.

Sometimes.....

Sometimes we wonder, what happened to others,
sometimes they wonder what happened to us,
Sometimes theres I and U in a relation instead of US,
Sometimes US stands against them n thats when togetherness is proved,
its easier sometimes to just let the sand seep out of our fists rather than trying to save every sand granule,
sometimes the struggle and the war to hold up the fort is absolutely worthy and sometimes it just might not be.
Sometimes not to react is the most impactful reaction coz other times it might create wars.
Like every action has an equal and opposite reaction so does a non-reacting sometimes...
It may just make u hold onto the sand in ur fist without letting any granules seep through. or even better without crushing them.
 sometimes life  gives u a push n some times u push it away.
There will be those some times, sometimes in life when u'll b happy and those when u wont, cause it all boils down to your choices, actions and sometimes situations..
 Hope the happy sometimes are more often than the other times for us.. :)  

Existence!!

For every atom is created with a destiny in this world and others.

William Blake definitely acknowledged it in his poem - "World in a Grain of Sand And a Heaven in a Wild Flower, Hold Infinity in the palm of your hand And Eternity in an hour.."
I was on a holiday at Maldives and ever since I spotted the little intricately designed bubble shaped shells it has only captivated me more. (the left image below)

The flawless white color, the even soft texture, the hollowness of it, the 2 uniform dots to the end and the perfectly aligned little pores forming almost an exact pattern on every single shell bubble.
The most notable thing about it was its sublime nature was its zeal of being firm in its existence inspite of its extreme fragility. I almost felt like i was holding a little miracle.

Its strange how the design was almost in a similar Star pattern. The Star as a symbol holds a lot of importance in Indian and Western mythologies and cultures. Its also observed that snow when broken down and researched breaks down in a star like formation. However that is a whole other world to explore.

 My curious self googled it a bit and found someone had like me expressed their amazement towards it and found the shell on the right and their observations were as follows.

 They are Christ Coins … the five slots represent the wounds on Christ's feet and hands, and the wounds to his head from the crown of thorns. The smaller slot at the bottom represents the wound in His side given to Him by the Centurion's spear.’

I have always called them sand dollars...Christ coins is interesting...I know that if they are broken open there are little pieces inside kind of look like doves...’

Wow....

My 5 elements

The 5 Elements of LIFE are not just seen in the nature. My interpretation and relevance are far beyond the traditional understanding.
 It was funny when one of the guys who was trying to woo me was getting onto my nerves and tried to intimidate me to the extent of me replying this to him. Now when I think of it, It seems to be my world summed up!!!
It was in response to a stupid thing he said to which i replied saying:
"Dude my aura will not let u come close to me coz my aura has a shield of the 5 elements.
 The 5 elements that start with the 1st layer of aura being as magnanimous as the sky representing my father;
2nd layer as vast as the oceans and the seas being the love of my mother
3rd being as strong as the earth being my brother ; 4th being as light as the wind - and yet subtle to stabilise - my close friends and family
 and last what remains is myself!!!
IT amazed me of my intriguing thoughts cause this definitely is deep!!! 

Ever wonder why ppl behave the way they do and the way they dont?

There are only 2 premiere supreme feelings that rule the mankind.

1) Love : The idea of being in Love with ur lover, parent, pet or even things is all but a sense of attachment that you have towards them and towards urself. &

2) Fear : Fear is a bigger blob of imagination to  lose and b detached with the things u love or to be associated with a sense of insecurity u'd have without the elements that give u the sense to security. 

 

The fear of even getting close to the sense being in the position to face the fear makes ppl to do things that probably might not be as appropriate as they wud once upon a time feel.